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She sits there with tears in her eyes
and pain in her heart, not knowing
what to say, sometimes not knowing
why she feels this way.
Sometimes she still feels all the pain, but wants it to go away.
No matter where she is or what she does, she still feels that heartache.
She is scared that something will happen once again.
She still feels alone sometimes, even though shes not, she knows shes got someone there who loves her alot.
She knows that she loves him too, but there's still all that pain that wont go away.
She has the one that means everything to her, but she also has this pain that wont go away.
She sometimes sits there and wonders, if she wasnt in my life, where would I be today.
She sometimes thinks, maybe if I eneded my life, all the pain would go away.
She knows now, that that's not the answer, no matter where you go or what you do, you may always have the pain with you.
She got engaged knowing she was in love with someone else, but was scared to tell her Fiance because she didn't want to hurt him.
She finally told him and found out that he did get upset because he was afraid to lose her right then.
She told him that wouldn't happen, but will always love both of them, but she does not love both of them the same, but one more than the other.
She has loved this other guy since the day they met, which was before she met her Fiance.
She wished it would have been different from the start, but will always care for him no matter how far they are, even miles apart.
She hopes they can be friends forever and never drift apart, for she has loved him from the start......
Someday
She wishes now and then, she could just disappear to some place where there is no lies, jelousy and maybe some other things too, but if we didn't have these things in this world, what would life be like???
If she had one wish in the world, she would wish to be perfect with no lies, jelousy or anything really, just one day, someday, everything would go away.
She sat up all night thinking, that she wants him to go to Stoon, but she wants to stay home now, because she doesn't want to go.
She wants him to go and be with his friends, for she knows how happy they make him.
She has this feeling inside, that he is holding something back from her. Why does she think this??
Maybe it's because of the girl he is going to see.
She is so used to getting hurt by being lied to and so much more, so she knows when there is something wrong. She just wants him to TALK to her more often instead of holding it in, because thats what causes our big fights in the end. She hates to fight with him because she loves him to pieces, but she is getting tired of him holding things in instead of talking to her.
Just for once, she wants him to understand.....
She sits there wondering day by day whats goin to happen with her and him, she wishes everything was so simple, but nothing ever is.
She wants to be with him, but she hates the way things are most of the time.
We fight so much I dont know how much more I can handle, she hopes if he reads this, he will understand how I feel.
There are just so much shit she can take before things have to change.
One of these days someday, they may have to change because there is only so much she can take.
She loves him to pieces and always will, there will be a place for him in her heart forever and nothing will change that.
She doesnt want ne thing to happen, but if shit keeps up, then thats the end.
She feels so lonely with no one there, but her preciouse lil one who always will be.
She feels as if he doesnt want to be here and wants to leave to go be wit his friends, but she would understand if things had to be that way.
Shes not holdong him bak from things he wants to do, but he wont tell her anything which is hard for her too.
She wishes he would open up to her a lil more, then maybe she would understand what he wants as well.
She just wishes everything was so simple, but it never will be.
You have to go through tough times in order to get better times.
Someday she will find that special someone,
She knows he's out there,
somewhere, someone for her.
Until that day, she will just have to wait and see.
Maybe he's right there, but she doesn't see.
WHO IS HE?¿?
He's The One She Wants....
He's the one she wants to hold everyday and everynight,
She wants to be able to tell everyone what an awesome boyfriend she's got.
She's finally found one who cares about her to,
not just some asshole who says he does when he's just not telling the truth,
Will he be hers forever and always?¿?
Because he's the one she wants!!
Why does she feel so sad,
What did she do wrong,
Everytime she trys, she keeps getting hurt,
She swears he's the one, but why does she feel so bad.
Everytime she hears his voice or talks to him, she's happy again.
It feels so right, but why is she so upset?
She's scared things will happen as they did before, but hopes they dont because he's the one she's been waiting for.....
Hugs and kisses and much much more,
No matter what she does,
She doesn't know how to show her love for you,
Words and actions can't define how much she cares about you.
Her heart can't be broken anymore,
For its been broken to many times before,
She someday hopes to find that speacial someone who can put it back together again and not break it.
Until that day comes,
She will never know what love truely is about.....
